I LOVE GUITAR♥

2010年11月1日星期一

I will become crazy Cherish..

     This few day..I always think about you..I dont know why..I dont know what happened..I thought I wont love you anymore..I thought I wont thinking about you anymore..I dont know why I still want to open your Facebook .. I just wanna see how are you now..? Jin..may I ask you..do you miss me..? even if just a few minute or when you are bored...I also will be happy..
    Do you know..? .. after you away from me...I feel like..I haven't smile sincere...till now..I still will cry... do you remember...the first time you said you love me..I still keep it..I save in " Microsoft word "...I know I am stupid..I know I am crazy..I know I same like a fool...do you remember the first time I call you..we talk till 3:00am..first time you came my house..first time saw you working .. first time I saw you cry in front of me..first time you somk in front of me..first time you kiss me..first time we went out together..first time you hug me..the memories still always in my mind..I want to forget it..but I cant..I hope you wont forget it ..but I knew this is impossible...I know you are happy now..I know..you love her so much..I know..I know everythings...
     May I say I hate her..? .. No...! I cant .. I wont..cause I know..she is your happiness..so I must like her..???..no..I wont do it..I wont like her..never ever..! I know .. I always want die..but I m not threat you..I m not..! that because I have some Depression and Abusive patients...I never tell you befor because I scared you will away from me..but now..even if I dint tell you..you were away from me already..
     I try to be happy..I want to be happy..I know I can..right?..I dont know if you see my Blog what you will think..but I hope you wont hate me more..I hope you will know I was not threat you...I am not......emmm....only have one thing..I really hate you..I told you befor..if you dont love me anymore..pls tell me..dont care my feeling..I am ok..do you remember what you were said..? you said you will care my feeling.. you said you wont away from me..but you lie..I was the last person know we're apart...you never say sorry..you never say one word of comfort for me..but that is nevermind..after I write this Blog..I will try forget about our memories...I wont think about you anymore..and really thx..cause you really gave me a nice and happy memories.....Jin...

2010年10月28日星期四

没关系

我是什么..?我到底是什么呢..?..我只是你们寂寞时的必需品吗..?她是这样...你也是这样...为什么我的角色就不能换一下呢...?一句对不起..一句对不起就可以把我付出的感情我付出的这一切就这样的抛弃忘记了吗...!?..是的...你忘了...你们都忘了..你们都选择把我抛弃了不是吗..?..我一直在等待你们...我以为你们会回到我身边...但是我只是在空等...

我还是傻傻的在乎你们以前曾经说过的话...你们或许早就忘记你们曾经说过什么了...但这一切现在对我来说...已经没关系了..真的没关系了吗..?

...是我那个没福气...没福气却又爱上你们...真的没关系..没关系..没关系..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!就算哭了没关系.....

你们可以继续开心的笑...你们可以继续让我受伤...对我来说这一切真的已经没关系了...我没哭...但我知道我的心在痛...我没哭...但我知道我很寂寞...但是没关系...只要让我呐喊...!..继续让我呐喊...只要有个人愿意陪在我身边陪我呐喊...聆听我呐喊...!!!!!!!!!!!

我以为你真的喜欢我...黄X聪...但我好想错了...这一切都是是我的一厢情愿...我不会再打扰你们的生活..我决定一个人生活..即使寂寞...

2010年10月22日星期五

呐喊

Blog是让我呐喊的地方...Blog是让我舒解压力的地方...Blog是让你们更了解我的地方...我的手指可以毫不犹豫嘚的键盘上跳舞...打出我的思想...在我脑海里乡的那瞬间...我的手指已经提前一步打上去了...

昨天晚上我打给你..你没空..难道是跟女朋友在一起吗..?真抱歉...不懂为什么么...我瞬间醒来...问问自己...我在干吗阿..?!..你可是有女朋友的...我干吗还对你纠缠不亲暧昧不羞阿..? 我清楚知道我必须离开...因为我知道我也许喜欢上你了...我不该再对你有任何留恋...深怕你带给我的只有伤害.....

2010年9月6日星期一

改变自己..

信心是来自于谁..?..信心是来自于自己的...最喜欢听老师说这句话...最近跳舞越来越开心了...我放开自己...不让自己在内向了...今天练舞..只学基本的东西...我的腰酸..背又痛...但是我却喜欢这种感觉...我是不是疯了...从今天起...如果有谁问我..你最开心是什么时候...我100%会回答...跳舞的时候...我跟朋友们越来越好...我会学着丢掉我的内向..我会向外向多多学习...!..加油Cherish..你能的.....!我会努力把所有东西都做到最好...朋友们..我们一起加油好吗...希望我们永远都不会分开...爱你们...4 TO 8...!