够了没有..!!

够了没有..!!..你们念够了没有..!!..你们到底想要我怎么样..!!..如果我真的能读我的学校的话你们现在就不必一直这样念了...!!..你们这样我很烦你们动不动..!!..我已经努力做到最好了...!!..但是你们只会念..!!..你们那么厉害你们去读啦...!!..我学校这样好读的话我就不必每天都在这里哭泣...!!更不必在这里埋怨..!!..如果我受够了你们的埋怨..!!..我会结束掉自己的生命..!!..最讨厌就是这样..!!..我脾气最近都很不好了..!!..为什么还是那么多人喜欢跟我吵喜欢弄我生气...!!..我想哭..!!..但我哭不出..!!..啊..!!!..为什么就是不能醉...!!!..让我醉了吧...!!!..醉了什么事都忘了..!!..为什么...为什么总是让我一个人...为什么都不来了解我...为什么..在你们心里我就那么无药可救吗..??
我也有梦想...我有我自己要走的路...我走的路不一定会让你们失望..你们却总是这样..!!..天啊...!!..没醉却想吐...!!..什么鬼屁酒啊..!!..难喝死了..!!!

Commitment

Hmmmm...suddently you came into my life...I don't know I need to be happy or be afraid...??...Even if you said you love me...even if you said you care me..even if you miss me and even if we are in a relationship now...but I feel unreal for it...I feel no sense of security....
You always give me commitment ... you always talking about our future ... but do you know...? When you give me commitment and when you talking about our future ... I will smiled..I also will accept what you said....but actually I was .... I don't know how to explained that feeling ... cause I will asked you in my heart...how did you know we will have future...??..Do we have tomorrow..?? Are you will still love me in future...??
My heart still will guard myself...cause I really afraid for love...I scared you will away from me too..same like them....! I don't want my heart get hurt again... please tell me the truth ... do you really love me...?? I don't know what I need to do...! cause I am fall in love with you...that's why I afraid ... can you tell me the truth....??..can you make me believe our relationship will be muchly...?? If you just wanted to have fun for our relationship .... please ... stop it ...
I really hope you will be my future and my life...do you want to be my future...??...If you don't want...please..just away from me now..!...I tried to trust you...but you are so perfect .... I 'm just a cleft lips girl ....you said you don't care...but I care..!
You are a hair designer ..... sure will have so many pretty girl like you...Now you will said you won't like them...but in future...will you sure you won't...?!....
When you see this blog...if you feel angry and sad...I said sorry to you.. and forgive me...

But now...My life still have you...so I won't feel lonely anymore...Thx my love...fortunely you came into my life...I don't want to think about future..I just want to Cherish all the time when you are be with me...Thx...Yit Cong...

I will become crazy Cherish..

     This few day..I always think about you..I dont know why..I dont know what happened..I thought I wont love you anymore..I thought I wont thinking about you anymore..I dont know why I still want to open your Facebook .. I just wanna see how are you now..? Jin..may I ask you..do you miss me..? even if just a few minute or when you are bored...I also will be happy..
     Do you know..?  .. after you away from me...I feel like..I haven't smile sincere...till now..I still will cry... do you remember...the first time you said you love me..I still keep it..I save in " Microsoft word "...I know I am stupid..I know I am crazy..I know I same like a fool...do you remember the first time I call you..we talk till 3:00am..first time you came my house..first time saw you working .. first time I saw you cry in front of me..first time you somk in front of me..first time you kiss me..first time we went out together..first time you hug me..the memories still always in my mind..I want to forget it..but I cant..I hope you wont forget it ..but I knew this is impossible...I know you are happy now..I know..you love her so much..I know..I know everythings...
     May I say I hate her..? .. No...! I cant .. I wont..cause I know..she is your happiness..so I must like her..???..no..I wont do it..I wont like her..never ever..! I know .. I always want die..but I m not threat you..I m not..! that because I have some Depression and Abusive patients...I never tell you befor because I scared you will away from me..but now..even if I dint tell you..you were away from me already..
     I try to be happy..I want to be happy..I know I can..right?..I dont know if you see my Blog what you will think..but I hope you wont hate me more..I hope you will know I was not threat you...I am not......emmm....only have one thing..I really hate you..I told you befor..if you dont love me anymore..pls tell me..dont care my feeling..I am ok..do you remember what you were said..?  you said you will care my feeling.. you said you wont away from me..but you lie..I was the last person know we're apart...you never say sorry..you never say one word of comfort for me..but that is nevermind..after I write this Blog..I will try forget about our memories...I wont think about you anymore..and really thx..cause you really gave me a nice and happy memories.....Jin...

没关系

我是什么..?我到底是什么呢..?..我只是你们寂寞时的必需品吗..?她是这样...你也是这样...为什么我的角色就不能换一下呢...?一句对不起..一句对不起就可以把我付出的感情我付出的这一切就这样的抛弃忘记了吗...!?..是的...你忘了...你们都忘了..你们都选择把我抛弃了不是吗..?..我一直在等待你们...我以为你们会回到我身边...但是我只是在空等...


我还是傻傻的在乎你们以前曾经说过的话...你们或许早就忘记你们曾经说过什么了...但这一切现在对我来说...已经没关系了..真的没关系了吗..?

...是我那个没福气...没福气却又爱上你们...真的没关系..没关系..没关系..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!就算哭了没关系.....


你们可以继续开心的笑...你们可以继续让我受伤...对我来说这一切真的已经没关系了...我没哭...但我知道我的心在痛...我没哭...但我知道我很寂寞...但是没关系...只要让我呐喊...!..继续让我呐喊...只要有个人愿意陪在我身边陪我呐喊...聆听我呐喊...!!!!!!!!!!!

我以为你真的喜欢我...黄X聪...但我好想错了...这一切都是是我的一厢情愿...我不会再打扰你们的生活..我决定一个人生活..即使寂寞...

呐喊

   Blog是让我呐喊的地方...Blog是让我舒解压力的地方...Blog是让你们更了解我的地方...我的手指可以毫不犹豫嘚的键盘上跳舞...打出我的思想...在我脑海里乡的那瞬间...我的手指已经提前一步打上去了...
 
   昨天晚上我打给你..你没空..难道是跟女朋友在一起吗..?真抱歉...不懂为什么么...我瞬间醒来...问问自己...我在干吗阿..?!..你可是有女朋友的...我干吗还对你纠缠不亲暧昧不羞阿..? 我清楚知道我必须离开...因为我知道我也许喜欢上你了...我不该再对你有任何留恋...深怕你带给我的只有伤害.....

改变自己..

   信心是来自于谁..?..信心是来自于自己的...最喜欢听老师说这句话...最近跳舞越来越开心了...我放开自己...不让自己在内向了...今天练舞..只学基本的东西...我的腰酸..背又痛...但是我却喜欢这种感觉...我是不是疯了...从今天起...如果有谁问我..你最开心是什么时候...我100%会回答...跳舞的时候...我跟朋友们越来越好...我会学着丢掉我的内向..我会向外向多多学习...!..加油Cherish..你能的.....!我会努力把所有东西都做到最好...朋友们..我们一起加油好吗...希望我们永远都不会分开...爱你们...4 TO 8...!

hahaha...

  幸好我这一次学聪明了...还是我根本不相信异地的恋爱....反正一句话..那就是I dont care...还有...我不喜欢不帅的男生...emmm...不是一定要帅....只要我能接受...但是到现在好像都没遇到咯....不喜欢的就一大堆...fuck啦...