够了没有..!!

够了没有..!!..你们念够了没有..!!..你们到底想要我怎么样..!!..如果我真的能读我的学校的话你们现在就不必一直这样念了...!!..你们这样我很烦你们动不动..!!..我已经努力做到最好了...!!..但是你们只会念..!!..你们那么厉害你们去读啦...!!..我学校这样好读的话我就不必每天都在这里哭泣...!!更不必在这里埋怨..!!..如果我受够了你们的埋怨..!!..我会结束掉自己的生命..!!..最讨厌就是这样..!!..我脾气最近都很不好了..!!..为什么还是那么多人喜欢跟我吵喜欢弄我生气...!!..我想哭..!!..但我哭不出..!!..啊..!!!..为什么就是不能醉...!!!..让我醉了吧...!!!..醉了什么事都忘了..!!..为什么...为什么总是让我一个人...为什么都不来了解我...为什么..在你们心里我就那么无药可救吗..??
我也有梦想...我有我自己要走的路...我走的路不一定会让你们失望..你们却总是这样..!!..天啊...!!..没醉却想吐...!!..什么鬼屁酒啊..!!..难喝死了..!!!

Commitment

Hmmmm...suddently you came into my life...I don't know I need to be happy or be afraid...??...Even if you said you love me...even if you said you care me..even if you miss me and even if we are in a relationship now...but I feel unreal for it...I feel no sense of security....
You always give me commitment ... you always talking about our future ... but do you know...? When you give me commitment and when you talking about our future ... I will smiled..I also will accept what you said....but actually I was .... I don't know how to explained that feeling ... cause I will asked you in my heart...how did you know we will have future...??..Do we have tomorrow..?? Are you will still love me in future...??
My heart still will guard myself...cause I really afraid for love...I scared you will away from me too..same like them....! I don't want my heart get hurt again... please tell me the truth ... do you really love me...?? I don't know what I need to do...! cause I am fall in love with you...that's why I afraid ... can you tell me the truth....??..can you make me believe our relationship will be muchly...?? If you just wanted to have fun for our relationship .... please ... stop it ...
I really hope you will be my future and my life...do you want to be my future...??...If you don't want...please..just away from me now..!...I tried to trust you...but you are so perfect .... I 'm just a cleft lips girl ....you said you don't care...but I care..!
You are a hair designer ..... sure will have so many pretty girl like you...Now you will said you won't like them...but in future...will you sure you won't...?!....
When you see this blog...if you feel angry and sad...I said sorry to you.. and forgive me...

But now...My life still have you...so I won't feel lonely anymore...Thx my love...fortunely you came into my life...I don't want to think about future..I just want to Cherish all the time when you are be with me...Thx...Yit Cong...

I will become crazy Cherish..

     This few day..I always think about you..I dont know why..I dont know what happened..I thought I wont love you anymore..I thought I wont thinking about you anymore..I dont know why I still want to open your Facebook .. I just wanna see how are you now..? Jin..may I ask you..do you miss me..? even if just a few minute or when you are bored...I also will be happy..
     Do you know..?  .. after you away from me...I feel like..I haven't smile sincere...till now..I still will cry... do you remember...the first time you said you love me..I still keep it..I save in " Microsoft word "...I know I am stupid..I know I am crazy..I know I same like a fool...do you remember the first time I call you..we talk till 3:00am..first time you came my house..first time saw you working .. first time I saw you cry in front of me..first time you somk in front of me..first time you kiss me..first time we went out together..first time you hug me..the memories still always in my mind..I want to forget it..but I cant..I hope you wont forget it ..but I knew this is impossible...I know you are happy now..I know..you love her so much..I know..I know everythings...
     May I say I hate her..? .. No...! I cant .. I wont..cause I know..she is your happiness..so I must like her..???..no..I wont do it..I wont like her..never ever..! I know .. I always want die..but I m not threat you..I m not..! that because I have some Depression and Abusive patients...I never tell you befor because I scared you will away from me..but now..even if I dint tell you..you were away from me already..
     I try to be happy..I want to be happy..I know I can..right?..I dont know if you see my Blog what you will think..but I hope you wont hate me more..I hope you will know I was not threat you...I am not......emmm....only have one thing..I really hate you..I told you befor..if you dont love me anymore..pls tell me..dont care my feeling..I am ok..do you remember what you were said..?  you said you will care my feeling.. you said you wont away from me..but you lie..I was the last person know we're apart...you never say sorry..you never say one word of comfort for me..but that is nevermind..after I write this Blog..I will try forget about our memories...I wont think about you anymore..and really thx..cause you really gave me a nice and happy memories.....Jin...