I will become crazy Cherish..

     This few day..I always think about you..I dont know why..I dont know what happened..I thought I wont love you anymore..I thought I wont thinking about you anymore..I dont know why I still want to open your Facebook .. I just wanna see how are you now..? Jin..may I ask you..do you miss me..? even if just a few minute or when you are bored...I also will be happy..
     Do you know..?  .. after you away from me...I feel like..I haven't smile sincere...till now..I still will cry... do you remember...the first time you said you love me..I still keep it..I save in " Microsoft word "...I know I am stupid..I know I am crazy..I know I same like a fool...do you remember the first time I call you..we talk till 3:00am..first time you came my house..first time saw you working .. first time I saw you cry in front of me..first time you somk in front of me..first time you kiss me..first time we went out together..first time you hug me..the memories still always in my mind..I want to forget it..but I cant..I hope you wont forget it ..but I knew this is impossible...I know you are happy now..I know..you love her so much..I know..I know everythings...
     May I say I hate her..? .. No...! I cant .. I wont..cause I know..she is your happiness..so I must like her..???..no..I wont do it..I wont like her..never ever..! I know .. I always want die..but I m not threat you..I m not..! that because I have some Depression and Abusive patients...I never tell you befor because I scared you will away from me..but now..even if I dint tell you..you were away from me already..
     I try to be happy..I want to be happy..I know I can..right?..I dont know if you see my Blog what you will think..but I hope you wont hate me more..I hope you will know I was not threat you...I am not......emmm....only have one thing..I really hate you..I told you befor..if you dont love me anymore..pls tell me..dont care my feeling..I am ok..do you remember what you were said..?  you said you will care my feeling.. you said you wont away from me..but you lie..I was the last person know we're apart...you never say sorry..you never say one word of comfort for me..but that is nevermind..after I write this Blog..I will try forget about our memories...I wont think about you anymore..and really thx..cause you really gave me a nice and happy memories.....Jin...